Ok, the title may be a little over-dramatic. Last night I realised I am rapidly heading into the last few days of being 24, a young person, before I turn 25 and am just another person. I find myself drawn to music that reminds me of being younger, pop-punk, New Found Glory, Blink-182 and The Ataris. "Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up". Sounds wonderful and makes me long for a carefree youth I don't think I had. Funny how music and movies can make you miss things that probably don't exist but you feel have passed you by.
I feel a need to make a statement to myself and the world in the next few days, before I wake up on my birthday to potentially feel like I've aged 10 years despite only being a day older than I was when I fell asleep. I want to regain the crazy mis-spent days, the suggestion of anarchy, they feeling that I can do anything and what other people think doesn't matter. I let what other people think affect what I do too much, and the rest of the time I'm too low to want to do anything interesting.
I want to dye my hair, pierce my ears, get tattooed, wear too much make up, go the supermarket in an evening dress, walk the dog in stilettoes. Be different to everyone else, stand out and not care. Enjoy life, like I have stopped myself from doing for such a long time. I don't want to get old, I don't want to feel old. Being 25 might just be a new start :)
I'll keep you updated (unfortunately this kind of planning does remove the element of spontaneity....)